@ 10:58 p.m. on Wednesday, Oct. 22, 2003
See it always works...God always comes through for me...I'm still leaving this situation to God, but things with the Welsh boy have progressed very well today.
I had a CRAP day overall, but it ended with a really nice phone conversation with him.
I had a fight over email with a friend of mine, and got extremely frustrated by some emails my boss's Manager sent to me. He treats us both with such disrespect sometimes and it infuriates me...I really have to try hard to keep my cool when emailing him back...It really makes me angry...anyway enough about him...thinking nice thoughts about WB(Welsh Boy)....
He sent me a beautiful email today (which isn't unusual, he sends me those every day), but today's was particularly touching...He basically stated once again that he can't wait to see me again and that he loves what I'm about and what I stand for, where I'm going with my life and the way I seek to constantly better myself. He said it has been wonderful having me as part of his life and he wouldn't change it for anything. He said I was a rare treasure and he wants out friendship to blossom more than anything. He then apologised if he sounded too heavy, but he said he wears his heart on his sleeve and he has to tell me how he feels. Then he said I was an angel in disguise...
How sweet is that? I melted immediately...But to be honest I've been feeling a bit frustrated by all these words and keep wondering when he's going to put his money where his mouth is. He's basically told me this weekend for sure, once he's moved out of the city and finishes this temp work he's doing. I hope he lives up to that. He said he wants to take me out for dinner, go for a walk on the beach and give me a guitar lesson...Sounds like a perfect evening to me.
Anyway on the phone tonight he wanted to tell me something but said he didn't know how to say it. Eventually he came out and asked if the next time we see each other was going to be a date or if we were just seeing each other as friends. I told him I didn't know and that I guess we'd should just meet up and take it as it comes. He went on to say that he'd noticed we have one conversation on email and another on the phone and its quite different, so he wasn't sure where we stood. I was so amazed that a guy was asking me all this. That HE was trying to find out where he stood with ME...I find that so bizarre. It's usually me left wanting more, but being too scared to ask what is going on.
He told me that thinks about me all the time, that I'm the first thing he thinks of when he wakes up and last thing at night...I'm just overwhelmed to be honest...I'm so glad he called tonight, as I think it's given me my faith back that maybe he really is genuine...
Can this really be happening?
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