@ 11:12 p.m. on Friday, Oct. 24, 2003
I haven't weighed myself this week. I've had stuff on all week and just haven't had the chance. I've also been a little out of control. Haven't counted points all week. I really need to get control again. Tonight I even had grilled fish and chips!!!
I was at a Women's conference today and will be there again tomorrow and that was the start of the bad eating today...Lunch and morning tea were included and I decided to eat the caramel shortbread they gave us (yum!) and basically decided that gave me a reason to eat everything they gave me regardless of the point value. I only exercised twice this week, so I'm a bit scared to know what the scales are going to say when I finally do get there :( Probably won't be till Wednesday night now, so I'll have to be very good till then and exercise Mon, Tue, Wed.
I'm seeing WB tomorrow. Exactly one week after we met. I'm feeling nervous and yet excited. I have no idea what's going to happen and have to admit that I'm having feelings of doubt. I can't work out how he could like me. Whenever I catch a glimpse of myself in a window or mirrror I ask myself how he could be interested in me. Part of me thinks that maybe he'll meet me this time and change his mind...sigh...anyway we shall see...He seems really excited to be seeing me tomorrow and I am too...
The Women's conference has been amazing. I haven't stopped crying. 1600 women in one room is a lot of hormones! I have had some amazing revelations and can't believe how much I'm crying lately. I just cry at anything. I think God is softening my heart...I'm feeling his heart for the lost and for the pain of his people...It's hard to explain, but I cried today from the soul...
The Women's conference is called "Women Dreaming" and I think God unlocked another dream for me today...I had a revelation that all the dreams I've written down so far are all about me. Which is fine, and there is nothing wrong with wanting the things I want, but sooner or later I'm going to have to look outside myself. I saw myself up there on stage doing what those women were doing today. I've always been able to do public speaking and I think I could pass God's message onto others through speaking and possibly song writing and singing...
God, your love amazes me!!!!!
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