@ 1:16 p.m. on Monday, Oct. 20, 2003
I feel sick today. I didn't go to work today...woke up with a headache and feeling sick this morning and in a bad mood. So I didn't go, which I feel bad about, but I just really couldn't go today.
And so I laid in bed till about 12.30pm, till someone rang the intercom. It was a plumber coming to fix our balcony drains which was lucky I was home. I laid in bed even though I wasn't tired and my back and head were aching from lying down too long.I don't know what is wrong with me. My eating has been really erratic today too. I had toast for breakfast and then when the plumber left decided I was hungry, so while I was waiting for my fish fingers to cook I ate 2 fun size milky ways and a piece of bread with peanut butter and some cold meat. Now I feel sick after eating a fish finger sandwich. Luckily the fish fingers didn't take too long to cook or I seriously would have eaten the whole packet of milky ways. I knew it was emotional eating, but I couldn't stop it and I just had to eat it to fill some kind of horrible void feeling I was feeling. I feel so sick now though and guilty.
Why am I feeling like this? Why am I feeling emotional? I have a feeling I'm worried about this new guy I met. I need to relax and not worry about things...
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